I don't want to have to keep secrets from the man I love, but these days have been increasingly hard for me to open up to him. I've been feeling so down and out after that incident, and I feel the old blood coursing through my veins. It's like a sickness that I wish to suck from a wound and vomit out.
It is true I don't handle attacks like that very well. I accept constructive criticism to my art and my writing smoothly, but when it comes to who I am, it's like pouring acid on an open wound. Its that my life hasn't been easy, I try not to whine about it. I usually keep it secret. It just isn't right to attack someone like that, and make them feel hated.
I've worked hard to be the person I am today, and I really don't deserve something like that. Especially when I haven't done anything wrong at all. Its unfair how words can destroy everything you've worked for. Its unfair how everything can just backfire, and you find yourself standing on that same road you were before. Lost and alone.
I want to hide inside myself. I want to stay in my room and cry, and just hide myself from their eyes. I feel completely broken up again.
I know that your significant other is a big fat liar, and she obviously messed you up. I think you are old enough to fix yourself, and not have to step on other people just to make yourself feel better.
Damn it.
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