There are only few memories of my childhood I can count, but I can clearly see how she took care of me. She was the most caring and kind person I knew, all of us knew. I had admired her, because she was so different compared to the other grandparents I notice. Never had I seen her shout or swear or be angry to anyone. She was so giving that even some of my relatives took advantage of her, but she still gave what she can anyways. I wish I could've taken care of her, or have been there for her at the last moments of her life.

I can proudly say that my grandmother was the best person I've ever known. I wish I could be like her, that she loves and loves unconditionally. 

I really do not know how to approach this situation, she is only the 2nd death of our clan. We hadn't handled the first very well, and I really don't know how we can handle this one. We had loved Nanay so much. We all admired her, that even in her old age she took care of us all.

I wish my baby could have met her. This is my first regret. I wish she could have someone she could look up to, my grandmother was the perfect example. Now, she is gone. My other regrets are the moments and the time we wasted in trivial problems. We knew she was old, yet how we let those moments pass so easily. Life is short they say, she had lived 90+ years but for me, it still feels that she had so much to give and share, especially to my daughter. I miss her, I miss her so much that I can't even cry. How can I face this when I should be strong for Aienne? How can I tell my daughter about her, when words can't suffice her greatness. I am no storyteller, and I wish I was. I wish I could tell the world how beautiful she was.

A part of me is happy to end her suffering. A part of me knows she would be happy to be with Tatay in heaven.. yet a part of me is saddened by her loss.

Nanay, we love you. We miss you, and we always will. Your kindness and your effortless beauty will always be remembered. I wish I could see you smile one last time.